Her

Till date there are stuffs that i thought were unreal , people can only think about them , imagine how would it be but never get to feel in their own life time , things that were portrayed in books with the help of author's illustration started happening , not butterflies but dragons started spreading fires in stomach , brain cells are getting too hammered to think what could be done next , sitting idle became a hobby , and none of these seems wrong for a fact , it feels right from the core of the soul , the quantitative measures of the moments spent with her started not impacting much , those talks about eternity , getting drenched on the grass , sudden lip locks making me believe this is what i wanted , for a long long time , probably longer than i can even remember , and may be that's why i will never be able to un-love her , this never happened , may be that's why all the little moment i get with her i want to seize them all , that makes me selfish , yet that too feels right , its just that the desire i have of being with her probably can not be compared with the amount of happiness derived to her as a result of my company , still that started not being important enough , it feels like if i was given the responsibility of sailing this whole ship to the shore all by me , i am ready to do that , she can be the waves , clouds , rains , thunderstorms , at times clearing the ocean to help me proceed , at times with her rage trying to make me stop sailing , as i promised myself , i will reach that shore , with her..
these are the things that i may have been afraid of few years back , or even now if she was someone else , but it is her and that's what makes it easy for me to commit , at least to myself , thought writing this would help , then i realized i do not need help , i am doing fine with few explosions in my brain and heart that i thought till date was unreal , see this writing is also one example of a selfish act , at one point i just thought i am writing this for myself , and now i am thinking i should show this to her , no i'm not gonna pretend that i tried to keep it secret and she looked at it forcefully because if i want to keep to myself i can , but i really don't want to. if nothing out of it she can still appreciate my writing skills , and trust me that matters, matters to me.  and may be i want her to see this because i may never be able to be this expressive while the depth of her eyes are asking me how am i doing , well this is how i am doing , but while with her i may only be able to mumble one or two stupid words like ok, fine etc . but to know that i have never been this finer before she needs to read this , she sure does. there will be desperate times , i know for a fact , but there are other things i know too , those times will need desperate measures that doesn't involves letting the clock tick and waiting for the forecast that says the storm has passed and we all can come out to look that what is left for us to live with but it involves making it through the storms and claiming everything that is our's as that will be ours forever , and if we don't try our regrets later on will provide us nothing but a deep breath and will wonder what would have happened if we haven't left each others side back then , well i am not the person who regrets , i try and try and try and proceed , and i hope she will be on board with me about this , and with all the sunrises that i may get and the dust of the evening when it sets , with the clouds when it pours and when the storm takes a tour  i will be with her , 

FreeFall

We spend the most of our respective lives thinking what happened in past and what might happen to us .. bt we always tend to forget the present in which we live in.. this way one fine morning we die.... nobody cares.. nobody shade tears ... even if someone does our spirits doesn't come back to check the same...

Life is a one time and a very precious gift to all of us.. but most of us doesn't live it the way we want...

While writing this i am travelling in a metro full of office going people.. all tensed with something... some with the thought that what if they cant complete the assignment by eod given by boss.. some thinking how the year end appraisals... some even thinkng that they cant take it any more and they are about to quit as well.... no one is giving it a thought that worrying about all  these in the metro  wont solve their respective problems so far... hence they are not being able to enjoy this beautiful metro journey...  neither they enjoy the kool windy breezes slapping their faces while they walk  towards office after getting down...

This is just a small instance... but this is the way we loose our precious moments worrying about stuffs .... moments with friends , parents , girlfriends/boyfriends....

We never get to know that they are going far away from us due to our ignorant behaviours... they are and they deserve much more importance than the office thoughts...

We are humans.. not machines.. we need to understand that to the core...

Lets not die with the highest bank balance and zero excitment in our lifetime.... like the that liquor add says " its our life , so lets make it large "

11.12.13

The day  , was indeed a unique Day , and i am not talking about the 11.12.13 and all stuffs .it is unique because our country's establishment of supreme law and order has given a verdict that is unique in its own way.. firstly when i read the same on facebook , thought of this to be joke , a joke that is a product of very very poor sense of humor. but as the day progressed i understood it indeed is a joke..but the only difference is that we have to live with this joke now on wards.







the LGBT (lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender) community is a part of the world we live in. it's sad to see that the mentality that endures the acceptance of this community is something that is still not adopted by our supreme power holders (on books).it feels funny isn't it? the country that claims to have one of the largest democracy is the same country that decides for us about whom should we love and whom we shouldn't.


there are people trying to justify this verdict . i don't doubt their ability to understand the law and order, i just pity their failure of understanding humanity,love.


now our country is in such a state where we hardly find originality in any of the section

if Bollywood songs to be checked , the tune of each of them are somehow previously recorded in some distant countries , every movie consists of fight sequences copied from some foreign flick , this is the country that adopted the " live in " culture , this is the country where actresses gets naked without any screen demand , this is the country where kalamodi still enjoys his power when the whole bloody world is aware of his scams , this is the country where our so called govt declares that inr 20 is good enough for a man to survive for a month , i wonder why our supreme court doesn't issue a verdict against these unique creatures , and if they are to believe that this verdict is a symbol of originality then i piss on this originality that criminalizes and restricts one's feelings.


i wonder what will happen to those local gundas who used to bully the "gay" people on road, now after the verdict they are licensed to bully them , and the thing that scares me most is these whole affair is to get bloody.. the gays are likely to get beaten by these gundas after these verdict but they will not be punished as they were serving the nation by beating up criminals (read as gay) as per our highest authority


we are sending our astronauts to mars , we are doing the nuclear experiments every now and then and we just can't let two same gender human beings love each other??


in the first line of the post i mentioned this day to be a unique one , no its not , its a black day , black day in our country's. this can't be the end , change will come , it has to come , but from within us , otherwise we will remain a third world country till the doom's day

India Through My Eyes

A County like Indiais a hymn that has no beginning and end - it discovers and rediscovers itselfthrough its illustrious souls. To define it - would just defy the rules of meredefinition and understanding of the finer and aspects of the being. Therefore,each drop has its own place in the meaning of what is India - the beautiful! Weas individuals have to strive in our own ways to make this reality - which alsoencompasses virtual and glocal into fruition